I am really unsure of how to put this so I am just going to say it...since this is MY blog I can really do whatever I want :) In order to STOP having some really FUN conversations at the grocery store/work/mall/gas station/everywhere...I thought this post might be a good way to tell every one (all 20 of you) what has been going on and explain why I have been a HERMIT the last couple of weeks!
I was pregnant, now I am not. I had a miscarriage about three weeks ago, I am slowly beginning to get over it. It is really hard when someone asks what I am having...when I am no longer having anything (and PLEASE do not feel bad if this someone was YOU..I still love you very much) thus the reason for me blogging about it. I know I am not the first (and sadly not the last) to have a miscarriage, but everyone grieves in their own way. I just want everyone to know that a PERSON IS A PERSON NO MATTER HOW SMALL (thank you Dr. Seuss) This may sound strange but this is helping me, I would much rather people just know what has happened then to have to keep telling everyone what has happened (it makes sense in my head) I know this may seem a very strange topic for someone to blog about...but I think we ALL have seen stranger things out there.
I want to say thank you to all my family..friends..co-workers who have helped me...from all the flowers, GROCERIES, phone calls, texts, emails, time off, doing my job and drop bys...I really don't know what I would do without all of you guys helping me and crying with me and especially letting me just do my own thing. I also want to add that I am sorry if I haven't been the best of friend back, sorry if I have seen you somewhere and really not given you the time of day (I would never do that under normal circumstances) and sorry if I haven't been quick to call/text/email you back either..I am being a better friend now I promise :)
I also want to let Dusty know that I really really REALLY love him, if I was ever unsure of us, I never will be again. Dusty you have been my ROCK through all of this, I really don't understand how you do it. I wish I could better express how much you have helped me, from holding my hand, wiping my tears, your reassuring words, holding me close while I cry, to changing the channel when baby commercials come on, screening my calls (yea I did that) and taking the burden when I couldn't handle it anymore. I love you so much and I am so grateful for your patience, understanding and love.
Thanks for letting me get that out...it is really hard to keep all of my emotions bottled up all the time, I needed a release. Again I know this is not what some people would BLOG about, but for me it helps. I need to remember that not everything is roses, there is good, bad and no reasons or explanations...some things just SUCK!
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wow Kylee... very well put and written. I'm still so sorry. I'm glad you are starting to feel better though. sending my love and hugs:)
I am so happy to see you are doing a little better! I am glad you blogged about this because now you wont have too many more akward conversations with people. LUV U TONS!!!
kylee, i am so sorry. know that you are in my prayers. im glad to hear you are doing well. if there is anything i can do for you, please let me know. i know that the Lord will bless you with the opportunity to be a mother and you are going to be wonderful! lots of love.
Kylee - I love you!! And I want to just hug you right now. No that is not a weird thing to blog about at all so don't feel that way. I'm so sorry you are experiencing this. It's no fun. I did it too, right before I got pregnant with Reese but I was definitely not as far along as you were. Hang in there and you WILL feel better. Please let me know if I can do anything for you. You're such a sweet thing - love ya!!!
Kylee And Dustin, I am sooo soo sorry. You are right, A person is a person no matter how small. But that sweet little spirit will come down to your home in a different body, that is what i believe. You guys are such a strong couple and Dallin and I love you both. If you need anything, I would looooooooooooooove to help with ANYTHING.
Oh I am SOOO sorry! No matter what anyone says, it still hurts! But it will get better and you'll get pregnant again and it'll be great! Hang in there hun.
I am so glad to hear you are doing better. I love you so much and hope that you will continue to feel better!!! I wish I could take some of your pain away, I really do!!! Lots of love
Amanda
I am so sorry!!! You are a gem and you are in my prayers
I love you!!! I know that nothing more then I love you needs to be said. No one can make it better no matter how hard they try. Love ya!!! Both of you!!1
Kylee, I am so sorry. That is certainly not an easy thing - and it is amazing how attached you become to them - you are so right that a person is a person. I love you SO much and think that you are amazing! I wish I could give you a huge hug right now! And that is totally not weird at all to blog about. Love you tons! You are in my prayers.
Kylee I am sorry to hear that. I hope you get feeling better soon. And no it was not dumb to blog about I think it is always best to talk about stuff like this so you can have the support you need. I know no one can say anything to make the pain go away. But it is always nice to know people care. Hang in there and ask for help if you need it.
Oh, KyLee, I'm so sorry to hear that. Isn't it nice to know though, that your little one is just waiting for you? Families are forever, and you will get the chance to be with that little spirit again in a much better time and place. Hang in there!
I am so sorry! I can't even imagine what you guys must be feeling! You guys are so strong!
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